No, there will be no picture to accompany this post. No, there's no quick-witted title for this post either. So what's a blog post if there's no witty title and picture? Just an extreme flow of thought.
Lately, I've been racking my brain trying to figure out what to write, how to write it, etc etc. You see, I've been blogging (privately and publicly) since back in those Livejournal days when I was a teenager. Writing has been my sense of therapy - whether or not someone was there to read it. It's been something that I've turned to to just release whatever is going on in my head, whether it makes sense or not. But lately, I've looked at writing differently. It's become my frienemy (yes, I'm also cringing as I type this). I've been in a love-hate relationship with it, my main thought being, how can I be open and relatable without being that open and too revealing? I've been putting all this pressure on myself to produce content without really thinking what said content would be about. My thoughts swirling around like, "How can I blog if there's nothing I want to blog about? How can I blog if it feels like I'm not being honest about what I can blog about anymore? How can I blog if I want to capitalize on it?" Yes, that last question is making me cringe too, but at least it's honest.
After contemplating it over and over again, I realized that I never started blogging "for the money". Honestly I didn't even think it was something I could make money off of in the first place, it was just a hobby that I loved doing. So, how does one return to their roots now that they've been to a few places between that has changed its perspective? How does one shake off this "writer's block" without getting into it again? The answer? Keep fucking writing.
This year, one of my goals was to be a better writer, which means you need to be a better reader first. I took that to heart and am crushing my reading goals this year, which is more than I can say for the past few years' reading goals. I've always tried to be an honest writer or at least as authentic as I can be or am allowed to be. Perhaps this is the start of a new blog section, or a bigger project or maybe more honest posts. For now, I'll take it as a small victory towards an open, honest post without being too open and too honest.